Yes, I know that one. That's a rather common proverb.
I guess it's just in how you view it, though. If you're chasing the rainbow expecting to reach something tangible or life-changing... then yes, of course that's going to be temporary and unsatisfying. [It wasn't realistic, after all. Rainbows were about as fleeting of an occurance that you could get.]
But... it still doesn't change that there's always something beautiful about a rainbow. And chasing one down, even it just means enjoying it a little longer, makes for a fond memory. And that memory will come to light if you ever see one again.
That's what I think of. For people, or places, or conversations... I would rather enjoy it in the moment, and cherish that happy feeling.
[He's silent for a moment, because...that's exactly what he acts on, 24/7. That's always what he does.]
[In a way, Luna and him are...similar, aren't they? She chases experiences and memories, he supposes. He chases the high of the feeling of having something, and wanting more.]
[And deep down, he chases attention, and affection, and the feeling of being wanted, too.]
... [He scratches the back of his head, still trying to parse his feelings into words.] Yeah. I live like that, too. I guess it's not exactly like you, but...its like, things are only as exciting as the chase, y'know? Some days I think its stupid to chase a rainbow. I know I'll never reach it. But some days, I...I have to. That's the fun of it.
[He frowns.]
Man, now that you've got me thinkin' on it...I don't know what to think, anymore.
It's okay. It's a complicated subject. If it were so easy for everyone that you could just will yourself to think one way or another, then... I suppose things like depression or trauma or addiction wouldn't be quite as, um... debilitating. But that's not realistic. So... I think that questioning it, and figuring out what's important and how it really affects you and the people around you, and how you can be content with wherever you end up... that's something you don't have to rush through.
[Her smile grows sympathetic. She had a feeling this wouldn't be an entirely easy conversation, but she's not about to push it any farther.]
Still... you gave me my answer, and you found one for yourself. Thank you, Mammon.
You had questions about the information on my profile, correct?
Master Blue... is harder to determine. The facilitator of our game was anonymous as well. But he didn't go by Blue. He went by Zero. The only other assistant the participants could speak to was an AI named Zero the Third, who was completely computer based and only focused on making sure the rules were followed.
There's no proof it's even the same person. The current year seems to make that suspect enough. Even if it was the same person, there may be completely different aims in what they would want to do.
Out of the ten participants... seven died by the end. One person was left behind, and two escaped. One was conscious, the other was not.
Before the escape, it was determined that the six people who had died up to that point may have been due to murder - not from the game, but from the actions of another player. The two people who determined that were the conscious escapee, and the person who was inevitably left behind.
[And if Mammon can do some basic math, there is something missing here.]
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I guess it's just in how you view it, though. If you're chasing the rainbow expecting to reach something tangible or life-changing... then yes, of course that's going to be temporary and unsatisfying. [It wasn't realistic, after all. Rainbows were about as fleeting of an occurance that you could get.]
But... it still doesn't change that there's always something beautiful about a rainbow. And chasing one down, even it just means enjoying it a little longer, makes for a fond memory. And that memory will come to light if you ever see one again.
That's what I think of. For people, or places, or conversations... I would rather enjoy it in the moment, and cherish that happy feeling.
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[He's silent for a moment, because...that's exactly what he acts on, 24/7. That's always what he does.]
[In a way, Luna and him are...similar, aren't they? She chases experiences and memories, he supposes. He chases the high of the feeling of having something, and wanting more.]
[And deep down, he chases attention, and affection, and the feeling of being wanted, too.]
... [He scratches the back of his head, still trying to parse his feelings into words.] Yeah. I live like that, too. I guess it's not exactly like you, but...its like, things are only as exciting as the chase, y'know? Some days I think its stupid to chase a rainbow. I know I'll never reach it. But some days, I...I have to. That's the fun of it.
[He frowns.]
Man, now that you've got me thinkin' on it...I don't know what to think, anymore.
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[Her smile grows sympathetic. She had a feeling this wouldn't be an entirely easy conversation, but she's not about to push it any farther.]
Still... you gave me my answer, and you found one for yourself. Thank you, Mammon.
You had questions about the information on my profile, correct?
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You're welcome? I guess?
[IS HIS ANSWER EXISTENTIAL CONFUSION????????????? THANK YOU LUNA????????????]
Yeah, I guess, though...everythin' seems so crazy now. I bet whatever you've been through isn't nearly as bonkers as like, Nikki bein' a wererat.
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I don't want to seem dishonest in that regard.
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Alright. [He leans on the chair, folding his arms.]
Let's hear it, then.
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Well... when you originally chased me down, it was to ask about the line of my occupation, correct? Do you remember what it said?
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Yeah. "Medical professional", "caretaker", and......."guilty party".
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That's right.
Did you know this isn't the first time I've been stuck in a situation like this?
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...Ya mean, walking up and having to deal with this whole weird murder game? That kind of situation?
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The last time wasn't quite this large. Only ten people. But it was very similar.
I think that's what my plaque meant when it said "participant."
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[Wait. That's what Isaac was talking about. She is the "someone else" who was in the middle of something related to murder.]
Was it in this house? Did you have to deal with Master Blue?
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Master Blue... is harder to determine. The facilitator of our game was anonymous as well. But he didn't go by Blue. He went by Zero. The only other assistant the participants could speak to was an AI named Zero the Third, who was completely computer based and only focused on making sure the rules were followed.
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That sounds nothin' like this. We don't even have computers. That just...seems really bizarre. Why not keep it the same?
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That's a little besides the point, though.
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[A shake of the head.]
Is there anyone else like you? Or anyone from the previous group?
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So...let me guess. The "guilty party" thing came from whatever you did in that group.
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Out of the ten participants... seven died by the end. One person was left behind, and two escaped. One was conscious, the other was not.
Before the escape, it was determined that the six people who had died up to that point may have been due to murder - not from the game, but from the actions of another player. The two people who determined that were the conscious escapee, and the person who was inevitably left behind.
[And if Mammon can do some basic math, there is something missing here.]
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Wait, seven died, but then it turns to six people....you're not skippin' a person, are ya?
[Murder by another player? Sheesh.]
W-which one were you? The one who got left behind? Or one of the two who got out?
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I... was neither of those options.
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[MATH EQUATIONS AROUND HIS HEAD]
I-I don't understand. If you weren't left behind, or got out......................were you DEAD?
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I was the seventh. I was the one determined to be the guilty party. And after the escape... I was killed for breaking the rules placed on me.
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Have...have you been a spirit this entire time?
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